Last night, ITV aired a special one off programme called 'Manchester: 100 Days After the Attack' which highlighted how the city responded to the tragedies and touched on the lives of some of the victims and survivors, and how their lives have changed since the night.

It is unlikely that you haven't heard about it, but in case you haven't, after an Ariana Grande concert at the Manchester Arena back in May, a suicide bomber detonated a improvised device in the foyer which killed 22 and injured many. It was the deadliest terrorist attack in the UK since the London Bombings in 2005.

If you've read any of my previous posts, you may already know that I was at the concert with friends on the night of the terrible attack. Luckily I was unharmed, as were my friends but it has left us quite mentally scarred, as you can imagine, and still to this day brings challenges to us on a regular basis.

It's something you never expect to witness and even now, loud noises or hearing/seeing things which remind us of the night are extremely upsetting and it is hard to imagine how we went to a concert to see one of our favourite artists and other fans never left there alive.

At first I was unsure whether I wanted to watch the programme, I didn't really know what it was going to show but the thought of it scared me. Would I cry? Yes. I knew I would. Would it bring back memories? Yes. But in the end I decided it would maybe be a good thing, watching it and understanding more of what went on following the attack was somewhat comforting. Even though people lost their lives or were injured, it still had a massive impact on mine and may others lives from then on.

It features interviews with survivors and the families of those who tragically lost their lives. Some scenes are very upsetting but I would definitely recommend giving it a watch if you are able to.

UPDATE: Since writing this post I have watched it several more times. Even now, seeing it and hearing what happened still makes me feel numb. It sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it but there's something which makes me want to keep watching it over and over again.

Beth x

Photo credit: https://twitter.com/sarahrogersITV/status/902620336704905217